S.A. Rambles

Although I (half jokingly say) "I haven't done anything with my life" this time of the year and I am not where I would like to be, I do think some good things happened in 2018. I traveled: First to Mexico in March and then to Arkansas in October. Mexico was a firsts of many. Fist time traveling internationally. First time seeing my dad in almost two years. Physically being able to hug him, spend time with him and relearning how to be around each other. First time having an honest conversation, filled with feelings and hard truths. First time being at peace with his addiction, learning that it's a disease and nothing that I do or say will stop him from drinking. First time riding a horse and learning why he loves these animals so much. The freedom you have while riding is indescribable and not a feeling I've ever experienced. First time witnessing true poverty, lack of basic needs like water and at times food. First time experiencing TRUE gut wrenching sadne...