S.A. Rambles

I knew from young age that my parent's relationship was not "normal"  but I didn't realize how toxic it really was until just within the past couple of years. They argued a lot, my dad drank a lot and now that I truly tried to remember, I never saw them display any form of affection towards one another.  Growing up and being around my friend's parents and families, I always wondered why my parents didn't look like that. Why did my dad not buy my mom flowers? Why did they not go on dates? Why did they not cuddle up together, give lingering hugs or affectionate kisses? Well, I'm guessing that when you know your husband is cheating on you, those types of interactions aren't welcomed or even sought after. I first learned of my dad's extramarital affairs one night when I woke up to hear my parents having a screaming match. Even from a young age I had a curious appetite. I wondered why there was so much screaming going on but instead of going to chec...

My dad and I on my last day in Mexico in the city of Purandiro.  I have so many self dialogues that it makes me feel a little less crazy to write them out on here then to simply walk around having solo conversations in my head. That's not weird at all....or so I tell myself. I mean the majority of those conversations are very introspective analysis of where I am in my life, why I am who I am and also complaining about my single status. There's basically a hamster wheel in my head and it's spinning non stop with all these thoughts but I'm outwardly supper calm and serene. I'm sure I'm not the only one that can relate to this juxtaposition.  That's also why I called this blog "S.A. rambles," because I'm basically jumping from thought A to thought B to thought C....etc without any real connections between the "thoughts" or posts. I am literally rambling, hence the name.  Lately I have been thinking about my time in Mexico and ...

Hey what's up hello. I basically treat this blog as my own personal diary because writing in an actual diary takes a) a lot more time than typing on here and b) I forget what I actually want to talk about since it takes a while for me to finish one sentence. So I guess.... Dear Diary, Here are a lot of random thoughts I've been having and/or talking to myself about: I've been getting into this new habit of going to bed early and waking up early to walk before I go in to work and let me tell you....GAME CHANGER. I feel so much more energized because I'm actually getting around 6-7 hours of sleep v. the 4 hours I was getting before and I'm walking, enjoying the chirping of the birds and the fresh air instead of   waking up first thing in the morning and scrolling through instagram. I read somewhere that every successful person has a morning routing that set their day off in the right track so I'm really trying to **actively** make a morning routine with just...